Spirituality

I had a wonderful family growing up that took me to church every Sunday and Wednesday, and any other time the doors were open. The dilemma I have come to recently is: Do I really and I mean really know who God is? I've heard about him my whole life and I have even taught Sunday school classes at my old church. But I am asking my self who is God, and it takes time for me to really answer that question. Recently I have went through a time that I couldn't hear God speaking to me. I became discourage and really didn't even want to try listening for God after a while. After silence for almost two months, for some reason God spoke to me after a similar prayer I had prayed the whole time and he just said to Be Diligent. The next service I asked God what he wanted me to do, and he said to me Just Love Me! I was pretty excited I had heard God speak twice to me in a row after I hadn't heard him in so long. I'm realizing that there is a difference between having a knowledge about who God is and what he can do, and experiencing God in a way that causes that knowledge to be conceived in practical ways. Just the other day in Sunday school, someone said that we should pray to God because we are totally dependant on him. I thought about that for a minute and I came to the conclusion that I only ask God for help when I can't handle a particular situation. I realize that the need to communicate with God daily for everything is foundational to knowing God and having a closer relationship with him. I've known this in the past, but as humans it seems like it take several times of hearing something before it actually stays with us. God loves us so much he wants us to find a way to have an intimate relationship with him, even if it take being silent for two months.